This Modeling Thing

Okay so a lot of people don't know that I did a pageant thing and actually won..yeah...I was kind of shocked too. It was a pretty interesting experience, one I'm not sure I'd readily embark on again but I did learn a lot about myself and about people in general but I digress.

Ever since winning, I've thought about actually becoming a model but I don't want to waste my time. Not everyone who becomes a model becomes successful and I already feel so insecure of my body at times. Yeah I know everyone is a little insecure but being a model means you have to be comfortable with who you are and what your body looks like otherwise the world of drugs and anorexia will be waiting to welcome you and I'm terrified of that.

I just think I was created to do something a little bit above the ordinary. I've been asked more than once if I model but I don't even know if I'm tall enough or skinny enough to pull it off really..but again that's probably my insecurities speaking.

Do I give it a shot or hope the wanting/feelings pass?